A couple of weeks ago, I was riding high, spiritually speaking.
We had had several weeks of exceptionally great meetings at church. I was praying more intently, and receiving answers. I was reading thought-provoking spiritual books. I was reading the Ensign. I was thinking a lot about the things I was reading.
Fast forward to today. Today was pretty good, actually, but last Sunday I had to stay home from church. Last week I was dealing with sickness on multiple fronts. I was tired, I missed church, I had to skip the Relief Society temple trip, and I wasn't doing any spiritual reading. And I could really feel it. It was like I was... deflated. The lightness I had been experiencing was just gone.
Is that all it takes?
A few days of slipping on my personal spiritual study and one week of missed church and I felt like I was taking a nosedive? Wow.
Such a stark contrast. Whereas before I was feeling tuned in, strong, open, and willing, I quickly (so quickly!) got to the point where I was just feeling listless, closed off, and strangely apathetic.
I definitely know which I prefer. So now I know what I have to do.