Eva hardly slept last night, therefore I hardly slept last night. I finally got to sleep at 2:00, but then was up many more times. I got up and showered and got dressed up because I was supposed to go to my niece's wedding today in Salt Lake. I took the boys to get their hair cut at 10:00 and Marc stayed home to put Eva down for a nap. She never could go to sleep and since she has been very congested for about a week, fussy and clingy for a couple days, and was pulling at her ear, I decided I would have to take her to the doctor. (She has a history of ear infections. I don't know how you can really have a history when you're not even 10 months old, but she does.)
I dashed over to the doctor's office, thinking maybe we could be in and out of there and I could still accompany the rest of my family to Salt Lake. After we had been waiting for 45 minutes (Eva crying the whole time), I stepped out to ask the receptionist about the holdup. She apologized and said the doctor was running late because she had had an emergency -- a baby drowned. I felt like someone punched me in the stomach. My irritation and frustration dissapeared in a split second. All I could think about was that poor baby's parents and what they must be going through. Losing a baby I'm sure is a grief like no other. My problems were promptly put in perspective.
So Marc and the boys came to switch cars with me and headed to Salt Lake. I'm sure it would have been fun to be a part of those festivities, but you know what? I have my baby, she's alive and she's sweet. I am feeling nothing but gratitude. I will stay home and nurse my sweet girl, and maybe she'll even take a nap. But if not, I will just hold her and be thankful.
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A reality check is a good thing, especially when you're tired and your baby is wearing on your last nerve! But what a terrible one to get! How terrible for that family. I can't even imagine. I'm glad that you get to hold your baby and help ease her pain today. I always have to relax and remind myself that the bad times will pass, and someday I'll look back on the days that I got to hold Kaitlin and be grateful that she would let me do that. I hoep Eva feels better soon.
I can't really say much, but I'm sure you know how I'm feeling about that.
Sorry about the crazy turn of events and that you missed your niece's wedding, but you know I can't argue with the happiness of holding a baby! Hope she is feeling better and you get some sleep tonight!
also, such a cute outfit/picture/baby
see my post :)
Perspective is a beautiful thing isn't it? I know I have a list of questions for Heavenly Father which I am sure will be sufficiently answered after I die but a little perspective on earth is such a blessing.
Oh my gosh, what an eye opener. I gasped out loud and feel so sad for that other family. I'm sorry you have to keep struggling with Eva's sleeping issues and ear infections, but you are so smart to feel thankful after that incident today. Kiss her again for me too.
I gasped out loud too...so easy to get caught up in our own little world. Thanks for reminding me to count my blessings today!
tears. you are a great writer. my thoughts go to that family!
i am sorry to hear Eva has had so many ear infections. I wish we lived next door to you so we could save you those waits in the waiting room. (ears are jeff's specialty) So funny none of my three girls have had an ear infection. we can't even take advantage of the one benefit of jeff's job. hang in there.
I love you and your words. It helps me to put my own stresses into perspective. Thanks.
OK...I have to chip in! It brought a tear to my eyes to read your comments. I am so glad you have such a good perspective. Eva is lucky to have such a warm and loving mother! And she is such a doll!
Cute picture!! You have a good eye for the camera!
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